random blabbering

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
assalamualaikum.

right now..

i feel like i want to cry.

why?

coz i miss u alot.

lately.

tengok wasap..

hmm...

x branie  nak tegur..

takot kacau.

dh brape lame gian nk bukak blog nie..

alhamdulillah...

hri ini bru ade kesempatan...

and ofcoz..

aku bace blog dia dulu..

^^,

and ahhaa

dia bz sgt. with exam.

hihi..

so, doaku buatmu kawan...

dh lame x update pasal dia.

untung ade blog...^^,

tajuk post pon macam dia..hihihih

saje je

btw...smlm...bersamaan dengan 24/11/2014..

aku ponteng klas calculus.

for teh 1st time.

tapi aku inform dlu ddekat abah...

yelah.abah amanakah utk blaja.tetibe aku ponteng..

thats why mintak izin dlu..

why ponteng ??

hmm...

siyesly..

i couldnt catch up with calculus now.

blur giler..

lau pegi pon..

wasting about 3 hours just like that.

tapi aku buat ape dekat bilik ??

1st, cawri info sal nk kne present lagi 2 weeks.

then, bce 2-3 chapters autum....

and...tdo !!!

haha. whenever i'm stress, 

i love to see the nature,

eat choco,

and sleeping !!!

then i sleep,

problem solved !!!

hahaha. 

okay.

 enough blabbering alia.

time to go to class..

t nk update lagi..

siyes rindu !!

with loves,

~alya~

life beyond textbook by aiman azlan

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
assalamualaikum.

hallo guys.

u know how im waiting for this time.

yelah...dkat ostel tenet susah...

line x smpai bilik..

nak bawak laptop p cafe mcm mls ckit..

and now,

i'm home !!!!

yippee!!!!

hihi.

okay. enough.

let straight to the point.

9/10/2014.

a famous, awesome vlogger, aiman azlan came to my Uni.

oh my..

i's very excited as wish so long to meet him.

i adore him !!

hahaha

and i was very lucky, coz ive the opportunity to sit in front,

behing him actually before he gave the talk.

^^,

oh ya, this entry purposely to share the contents of his talk.

^^,

he talked about life beyond textbook.

he gave a definition  about education, taken from book,

"weapon of mass instruction" written by John Taylor Gatto,

there were some points that he highlighted from that definition.

1) large self-initiated

    - if we dont get what we want, just think, there are so many other professions that we never         know despite those femes carrier

    - everyebody has their specific career path

    - never estimate ourselves with other. (we are who we are. no them)

    - well, we'll never enjoy our studies if we being forced

2) broad experiece

    - move ourselves from the comfort zone. 

    - go travelling ! (coming soon!! )

    - interact with other especially with the elders (out of our circle)

    - when we know there are differences between us, then it will be the advantages.

    - we cant live in our egos....

3) constant introspection (hisab diri)

    - ability to see ourselves..

    - ask ourselves, why we do that ???

    - we cant just follow the nafsu, but think wisely before do sth,

    - many of us, choose the wring GOD without our concern.  then ask, we are slave for who?

4) ability to concentrate on one's purpose in spite of distraction

   -real education will ensure us to keep focus even distraction keep coming.

    (distraction like our gadgets, friends,sleepiness and so on. ^^,  )

5) curiosity, patience and intense watchfulness

   -in education, we have to gain curiosity on sth

   - patience in curiosity, stimes we got the answer for our question, but stimes we dont. so, be          patience coz 1 day,we'll get that answer.

  - we have to be curios in finding the truth.

  - talk to al-quran, then we willfeel that al-quran is really relevant to us

  - observe on what we have

  - change the way how we see this world !!!

6) learn from mistakes

  -  mistake is part of real education.

  -  substancial, try and error

  -  do the best

  -  accept the feedback from the environment. (there is no feedback if there is no mistakes)

  

#appreciate the effort

#focus on the purpose

#words only hurt, if only we allow it to hurt

#sth is wrong if we cant tell our own family what we feel

#check which of our passions that is glitter ^^,

#a person who stands on a piece of a paper, is a gud improvement for a person who wants to touch       the sky

#i move slowly, but i never move backward.

okayy..

thats all the points that i jotted down.

the explanation is ......think own your own.. hihi.

well, this entry is fully in english ??

wow !!!

aiman said,

just try it to speak in english. 

even ur sentences are totally have grammatically errosr. 

this is the process of learning.

hopefully this entry will benefits us.

so, bye.

till we meet again aiman...

^^,

 ~may Allah bless you and your wife.
 ~ till we meet again.
 ~ your talk was so fun, and make me think so much. i love it.
 ~ wish me luck ^^,

with love

~alya~

am i ??

bismillahirrahmanirrahim
assalamualaikum.

thinking about myself..

aku...selalu fikir aku nie mcm mne.

aku,..suke fikir kelebihan dan keburukan aku.

yeah, i'm a person like that..

i wanted to know what is my weakness, what is my strength...

aku nak tau salah silap aku...

but, once i know,

i cant change myself.

i even be worse.

am i ??

im such a coward.

rase lemah.

lemah dan lemas dlm hidup.

dont know why,

i cant help myself.

i need you..

but then, u r not here.

so, i'm alone.

am i ?

no..i'm not alone..

i have Allah...but i forget Him...

why ??

coz im a human that always do the mistakes.

Allah did n always show the way..

but, me...i myself ignore it..

how bad i am...

but again, 

i realise my mistakes,

then i asked my kakak liqa..

she said,

pintu2 taubat selalu terbuka utk kita.

cube amalkan solat taubat sebelom tdo or slps isyak..

Allah sayangkan kita..

sebab tuu Allah sentiasa tunjukkan jalan yang betul..

tinggal kita je utk pilih jalan tuu...

she's right.

and i now, in my progress,

to be a gud girl.

a better daughter,

and a best friend.

if i'm not, then bring me, to the right path..

please...dont ignore me.....

~alya~

specially for you

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
assalamualaikum

hallo guys,..

this is my fast writing entry..hehe

kejar mase...

cume nak cite kisah lame..

{30 ogos 2014}

tarikh nie, cume 2 hri sblom aku berangkat ke usim berjanji pd ibunda.

ada apa dgn tarikh nie >??

on that day,

dri pasir mas-->pengkalan chepa-->pasir puteh

korang ingat dekat ??

jauhhh

aku drive sendiri..

even for the 1st time, abah x kasi..

tp aku pujok jugak,,last2 abah izinkan...

^^,

pegi mane ??

buat ape dekat pasir puteh ??

actually, pegi umah mira.

sblom tuu, p amek basmah jap..

kami ber3 deskmate...

duk barisan depan skali...

mira dh nak fly...to mesir which is tonight. !!

okay..

that day, 

kami spent time together.

berceritatera..

bergelak tawa

berselfie

spuas hati kami...

untung mak ayah dia kuar..hee.. 

so, xde lah malu nk selfie bagai...

hah tengok !!! bile dapat monopod dka kitorang. 

hee. enjoyed ourselves ar...

mcm2 gaya..

hee...

pic nie di ambil lepas hujan..

nak tau, kitorang taajub tengok sempadan hujan..

"eh, sblh sane hujan laa."

comell sgt...

skali hujan tuu tetibe dtg dkat umah mira...

ape lagi...kalut ar nk angkat baju..

haha

basah habis baju kitorang...

hee... ^^,

saat u..kitorang dh nak balik dah...

tp mcm susah sgt nak masok kete..

mcm x nak balik je..

sebab kami fikir, this is our last chance to be together...

gud bye picture..

sbnrnya...

ingat nk p hntr dia dkat airport...

tp bile fikir balik...

i cant.

i'm not strong enough to say gud bye directly...

aku tanye pendapat kwn aku,

dia cakap,

"x nyesal ke x g ??"

huh...x tau.. nyesal ckit..

tp, i think,

biarlah yg terakhir tuu jadi yg terindah.

^^,

be strong,

be tough.

Allah is always with us.

love u.

miss u.

forgive me.

for everthing i did.

salam sayang.

~alya~

mahasiswi usim ^^,

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
Assalamulaikum.

Hair uollss..

Dh lame nak update blog.

Tp x berkesempatan.

Nie pon gune fon je

Typo banyak...

Banyak benda nk cite..

Tp nie nk cite benda yg ringkas je.

Ekceli..bru habis orientasi.

Okay. Penat sgt.

Dh la tuu..ad minggu bhs arab lak.

2 hri je.

Okay.

Orientasi best.

X padat.

Penat. Penat menunggu.

Tunggu program nk start.

Hee.. Okay la tuu..

Drpd penat kejar2.

Minggu bhs arab pon best.

Ust sporting giler.

Dgn 4 bulan x guns bhs arab nie,

Mmg hancur ar.

Tibai je smua.

Haha

Kawan2 smua sporting.

^^,

Hri pendaftaran kolej

Bratur nak amek makanan.

Bapak pnjg..

Selfie sat lam dewan. Haha

That's all from now. 

Bubbye.

Psstt...next week dh start kuliah...nervous babe..

~alya~

kawanku accident

bismillahirrahmanirrahim
assalamualaikum.

hello guys!.

selase lepas, (250814)

tetibe dpt msj..

msj mengatakan yg ade sorang member aku nie accident.

aku ape lagi, 

x percaya lah kan..

tapi...call org tuu..

call org nie..

nak confirmkan berita tuu..

Innalillah wa inna ilaihi roji'un...

mmg betol lahh...

member aku !!

terok kot .

siap patah tgn lagi..

org kate, klau tgok kerete tuu,

blh imagine lah org kat dlm tuu mcm mne.

nie lah dia...member aku tu..

(di pcb)

2 minggu lepas,

kitorang bertiga buat medical check up same2.

aku cakap dekat member aku tuu,

"pegang molek filem xtray tuu..

kan patoh pulok tulang awk tuu.."

hehe. kitorang main2 je.

last2, masin mulut, 

betol2 jadi lah.

astaghfirullah..

 lain kali kne cakap elok2 je.

okayy.

19 ogos lepas, aku dan kwn aku lam picca tuu 

pergi jalan2 ke kb.

-buat ic

-baiki laptop

-beli lab coat

-shopping

-bayar yuran

-buke akaun bank

bila selesai smua urusan, 

kitorang g release tension dkat pantai.

*time nie aku nanges je...(ad prob ckit)

and aku call my mom n a few friends,

tp mom aku je answer. org laen x.

xpe. Allah nk suruh aku luahkan pada Nya laa tuu..

^^,

eh jap,mase otw balik dri KB tuu..

tengah elok aku drive...laju lak tuu...

tetibe ade sekor kereta nie tetibe cross dpn aku.

jauh.

dalam 500m lagi.

tapi..mase tuu...

aku mcm tengok jalan tuu kosong je..

naseb baek time tuu ade motor sebelah kereta aku nie,

dia hon kuat2..

aku pon tersedar.

"eh, ade kerete nk cross lah."

alhamdulillah, 

Allah hantar motor td.

supaya sedarkan aku.

haishh.. kena careful lagi nie..

jadiii...

keesokkan hari lepas accident tuu, 

pagi2 lagi ak pegi hospt.

(ats urusan laen sbnrnye. sambil2 je) 

aku jumpe mak dia..

borak2..

tnye laa mcm mne leh jadi...

puncanye, 

abah dy ngantok...

saat terlelap beberapa saat,

kereta tuu masok lam jalan org.

at the moment, lori pasir dtg dr arah bertentangan.

kemain lagi lori tuu cube mengelak.

tp, tetap x berjaya.

alhamdulillah, time tuu gune kereta yg ade safety.

dgn adenya air bag, kurang laa ckit impact tuu..

so, dont forget to click so that ur air bag will be function.

then,waktu melawat tengah hri tuu aku dtg lagi..

kali nie dtg ngn member yg lagi sorang.

(yg dlm pic tuu jugak..)

sampai je, tengok di katil xde.

musykil, dh balik ke ???

a few seconds after that,

nampak dia dibawa masok dgn kerusi roda.

rupenya, baru lepas simen tgn tuu..

kesian. nmpk sgt lemah.

aku nie, dh rase sebak dh.

seboleh mungkin aku tahan.

joke around, supaya dia xrase lebih sakit.

dlm 5 minit je kitorang berbual,

tetibe kwn aku yg dtg melawat ajak aku keluar.

pelik, tp aku ikot je..

rupenye dia rase nak pitam n muntah.

hee..

alah dgn hopsital rupenye.

^^,

aku nie, x tau nak buat ape..

tenangkan dia jap..joke around lagi.

and amek gamba dia.

huhu.

pucat kot.

(dah mintak izin nak gune gambar nie ^^,)

spontan dia cakap,

"atilia eh, nie lah hikmah x leh medic. 

x sanggup sy..dgn bau ubat, makanan bercampur ssekali."

"memey tabik lah dgn doc nie.

sep dio memey kuat.

hari2 tengok org sakit..

urghhh... sy x leh laa"

^^,

aku cume mampu senyum.

ya.. hakikat seorang doc. mmg diorang kuat.

and more likely org yg terpilih.

and i aint the chosen 1 but you do.

selepas dy cam ok ckit,

aku pon masok balik...

masok sorang je la...dia tggu dekat luar.

^^,

borak2 jap.

sekali lagi,

seriau aka seram sejuk bila dgr dy cite pengalaman dia.

sakit nk kne simen,

sakit nk bangon.

smua sakit.

x dapat aku bayangkan kalau aku di tempat dia.

mau x nanges.

dh laa aku nie jenis sensitif.. ^^,

aku cakap,

'adelah hikmah jadi smua nie. setiap benda yg berlaku, mmg baek utk kite.

istighfar banyak2.'

few moments later, mak cik dy datang.

so, aku pon balik ah...

semalam, (27 ogos), 

aku melawat dia lagi.

kali nie dekat rumah.

oh ye, sbnrnye, lepas aku g melwat dkat hosp, 

dia terus boleh balik..

then aku tanye dy,

kawan2 ade dtg melawat ??

dia cakap, xde lagi tuu..

ok. i was the 1st. 

~lalalala~

yg dkat hosp pon aku ngn member aku je dtg..

org laen xde sampai lagi..

mungkin diorang pegi kot.

well, org sakit nie,

kne pegi melawat.

bg support moral.

kalau aku,

aku akn engat sgt member mne yg dtg..

appreciate lebih ar ckit.

huhu.

tapi...klau yg sakit tuu perempuan, better org laki x masok dkat ar..

kesian dkat dy.

kan terbuke lak aurat.

kalau doc x pe lah.

member aku nie,

dah sedaya nye tutup...

letak towel..selimut.

semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan.

xdapat laa dia fly 2 sept nie..

fly ke sabah, dia dapat fizik dgn elektronic.

Allah sayang kite,

sbb tu Dia uji kita.

Dia nak kite makin dekat dgnNya.

banyakkan istighfar.

insyaAllah khair.

syafahallah. ameen.

with love

~alya~

prospek kerjaya in kimia industry

bismillahirrahmanirrahim
assalamualaikum.

bila kite dapat kos yg mcm agak umum,

maksudnye, xde la specific akn jadi 

engineer ke,

doc ke,

nurse ke,

pharmacist ke..

lawyer ke..

so, kite kne aim awal2.

insyaAllah, 

semoga jadi perangsang utk menggapai impian.

^^,

walau org kate nie kos ntah pape,

kenapa x amek kos itu dan ini,

aku jawab,

"kalau ada rezeki dan kne carenye...

insyaAllah peluang tuu tetap ade."

so, for technology kimia industry,

gambar di bawah adalah prospek kerjaya yg boleh diceburi.

^^,

and, yg aku higlightkan tuu,

insyAllah, aku kearah ituu..

dlm hati cume ade pharmacy n forensic je.

insyaAllah khair.

banyak lagi mase utk kite fikir ape yg terbaek buat kite.

dan ape yg kite dapat,itu yg terbaek buat kite.

yg aku perhatikan prospek kerjaya kos laen,

aku rse, aku kurang berminat.

tapi utk actuarial science, mmg best ar kerjaya akn dtg.

yg  penting, kne blaja betol2. 

skor n skor

aim scholarship.

insyaAllah, peluang kerja lagi banyak.

pssttt...nak jadi forensik tuu sbb nk jd dr mayat.

x dpt jadi dr org hidup, mayat pon jadi lahh..

well, dr still my dream.. ^^,

with love,

~alya~

inspirasi untuk update blog ^^,

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
assalamualaikum.

mesti pelik kan, rajin pulak aku update blog nie byk2.

:D

sbnrnye.. aku still mls.

tp aku was inspired by yasmin huncwink.

arwah sbnrnye.

dia sebaya ngn aku.

meninggal sbb accident ... 

dia, dan lagi 2 org kawan dia meninggal.

x sempat amek spm.

aku baru je tau pasal dia nie.

nila terbace blog dia..

rase nak tau ape yg dah jadi.

so, satu per satu entry dia aku bace.

*tapi x smua

rupenya, dia sorang yg sgt menarik.

kalau nak tau pasal dia...

pakcik google setia berkhidmat.

mase 2012, sbnrnye,

dia jadi trending tau. 

sbb, dia ade post gamba pasal buku yg menceritakan kematian.

smua nya as hints yg dia dah nk pergi.

*try cari gamba dy td.. tp susah nk jumpe.

so, pandai2 la cari sendiri ye.

nie lah dia...Yasmin Johan Huncwink.

cantik kan ??

^^,

then, aku terfikir, what about my ending ???

wallahu'alam.

disebabkan kejadian ni...

aku rase nak update pasal personal.,

tentang kawan2, family, my life..

semoga bila aku xde nanti...

blog aku jadi jem...

sbb smua org nak tau sape atilia athira

hahaha.

bengong aku..

fikir pelik2.

kahkahkah.

^^,

jadi..

sebolehnya, aku nak post byk2..

before kuliah aku start.

next week lahh..

t klau dah ade kelas, x sempat sgt nak update.

nak nak klau line mcm siput. lagi lahh..

^^,

orait then..

bubbye..

semoga dikau tenang di sana.

insyaAllah. ameen..

~alya~

magicfunapps

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
assalamualaikum.

^^,

hah. dekat fb kan ade app nie..

so, aku saje je maen2.

try this i found it's...so true..

haha.

kann ???

aihh... mmg pon.

stubborn, straight talking, and so on.

(yg tulisan hijau tuu)

mostly, betol..

kalau tulisan kuning tuu more like ramalan..so, aku x percaye.

^^,

khurafat kan.. syirik sudahh...

orait then. 

nk cite nie je..

bubbye

~alya~

with love~alya

bismillahirrahmanirrahim
assalamualaikum.

pagi tadi dpt whatsapp nie..

dri my besties.

^^, 

i read and read again..

about 5 times or more ???

last2..rase nak nanges. 

touching.

tapii....control jugak sbb time tuu lam car.

ade ma, along, n nenek.

kan pelik lak nape aku tetibe nanges.

^^, hee

 tetibe engat smua kisah2 lame..

hehe..

that moment.

aku cume bleh teman dy time derma darah tu..

nak derma jugak..tp darah x cukup sbb 

aku pon baru je derma darah jugak..

x sampai 4 bulan lagi...

so, tepakse laa nengok aje org laen.

mase tuu kempen derma darah sempena sambutan jubli intan.

and... mse dy tengah derma tuu..

ade sorang mamat nie..hensem bahh..

hahaha.

okayy..

jeling2 je. 

:D

aku mengada p angkat bag darah tuu, tunjuk dekat dy..

apelagi.. dy rase mcm nak pitam.

nak muntah.

* sbb dy x cukup tdo sbnrnye..

uhuhu.. that moment. never be erased from my memory.

^^,

then aku reply dgn gamba di atas.

sweet x aku ??

huhu.

mengada betol aku nie...

tapi..tulus dari hati.

^^,

i'm only human

thats all. ^^,

with love,

~alya~

dushh lagi

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

assalamualaikum.

nampak post nie lam fb td,

dushh.. kena lagi.

Allah mmg nak bg aku sedar kn ??

not sure this post point to whom,

but i'll take it positively.

hah atilia !!!

paham x lagi ??

hormat sikit orang tuu!!!

jangan main sedap je kate itu ini.

biarlah..life org.

bukan kau.

kalau kau berada di tempat diorang pon, 

u have no choice as well !!

take it or leave it .

~alya~